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A New Addition

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My son, Jensen, was born 3 months ago and is the latest addition to our clan. He so far is the exact opposite of my rambunctious daughter. He is calm, easy going, happy and chubby! Not to say my daughter isn’t happy, she is but she is also full of different emotions and full of high energy! Our house couldn’t be more happy. Sure there are good days and bad days, not every family or relationship experiences highs consistently every single day. But our highs definitely outnumber our lows and that’s that is most important.

Adding a new baby to the mix was definitely challenging. I could definitely feel the challenge when I was still pregnant! The first few weeks were intense! I was worried about my daughter adjusting, trying to recover from child birth, trying to take care of a newborn and all the while trying to maintain my sanity from zero sleep. But I made it! I’m here 3 months later and can tell you that it does get better. Routines start to fall into place, siblings start to adjust and you just make more room in your life for more love. You start to learn to let the house get a little messy in exchange for more cuddles, let yourself go a little in exchange for that extra hour of sleep, and to not have to try to be perfect all the time.

My experience this time around with having a baby was much better than my first. Not to say my daughter was bad, it just was being a first time parent I had no idea what to expect or how to deal with things. I had so much stress and anxiety after my first that it made my newborn experience unfavorable. This time around I was able to enjoy the experience much more since I had been around the block already. It’s true, after your first kid, the rest is much easier!

 

I’ve Been MIA

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Sorry that I’ve been MIA for practically a year! A lot has happened! The biggest news of all that we are expecting a 2nd baby this April! With a new move, Thanksgiving, Christmas, planning a Baby Sprinkle and also getting ready for the new little one it has been quite hectic around here!

Being pregnant while have a toddler makes things quite interesting I tell you. My first pregnancy was a breeze because I could spoil myself, go work out whenever I wanted and sleep whenever I chose to. I didn’t have to answer to anyone and didn’t worry much about the late night insomnia because hey, I could just take a nap the next day right? That’s definitely not the case now. I have a boss to answer to and she is demanding. She stands about 30 inches tall and she wants what she wants. Pregnancy insomnia is in full effect and my job as a Mom does not include naps. Whoever said “nap when baby naps” must have an assistant/maid/nanny/magician. Sometimes you just want to sit in silence during naps and zone out. Other times you want to take that much needed shower, eat something, return messages or catch up on things that have fallen behind.

So anyways, I will definitely make separate posts about these different subjects later. Just wanted to give a quick update! Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and New Year!

 

Random Mom Hacks/Tips for Shopping

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Note: This post will be updated regularly to add more tips as I find them!

Baby Registries: I had the worst experience with Babies R’ Us so I don’t recommend going with them. Loved my experience with Amazon as they have a great completion discount and if you have Prime it’s even more! I hear Target is great too!

Babies R’ Us: Hated this store at first but love how they price match other competitors. I recommend taking advantage of this all the time! They price match with Amazon as well! My local Babies R’ Us takes non-expired Bed Bath Beyond and Buy Buy Baby coupons so make sure you check if yours does too! Every so often they do have good sales. I like the Babyganics and Dapple brand. Every other month they have a “buy one get one 50% off” sale on those brands. If you can find a manufacturer’s coupon on top then you are set! Don’t ever buy Carter’s brand clothing here unless it’s on clearance. You can find it way cheaper at the Carter’s store. More about Carter’s below.

Buy Buy Baby: This is by far my favorite baby store and they also price match as well! They carry way more selection and the customer service is top notch. They also take non-expired Bed Bath Beyond coupons. Definitely sign up for their emails for monthly coupons!

Target: Target price matches as well. But I believe you have to buy the item then if you find it cheaper elsewhere or on their website they will match it within 14 days. Also, download the Cartwheel app for even more savings. I’ve saved so far over $60 with the app and have been actively using it for 4 or 5 months. Take note of their random promotions like “Baby Week”. For example they will have something like this: Buy $150 worth of baby items, get $25 Target gift card. But on top of that if you buy select diaper brands you can get an extra $10 gift card per 2 boxes bought. I did this the other day and got $55 back worth of gift cards AND I used the coupons on the Cartwheel app. Going back today to do the same thing but with manufacturer coupons on top of that as well! I heard  it can get as cheap as $8 for a large box of diapers! So cheap!

Carter’s: I may as well just hand cash over to Carter’s every month because this store just gets me every time. WAIT UNTIL major holidays to really buy out the store. That’s when they have promotions like “extra 30% off clearance” and “everything 50-60% off in store”. They do always have sales but I notice around the holidays it’s even better. Also, sign up for their emails to get that monthly coupon: 20% off your $40+ purchase or 15% off your $20+purchase.

Formula: Sign up online with Enfamil and Similac for their monthly coupons. You can get around $5 off with each check!

Bed Bath Beyond: I know that they don’t have a lot of in-store baby items. But if you want any household goods or partake in any of their sales be sure to use their 20% off coupons! Sign up to get them emailed and mailed to your house. THEY WILL TAKE EXPIRED COUPONS AND ALLOW YOU TO STACK AS MANY AS YOU WANT!!! I have gone in and used 20 of their coupons at once!

Supermarkets: Always check the back clearance section (usually by the butcher department or restrooms). On occasion I have found damaged diaper boxes (diapers in tact and okay) marked down 60%. These were Pampers brand so not too shabby!

 

Losing Friendships

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I’ve touched on this topic before in previous posts but lately I’ve been feeling it more than ever. Becoming a mom brings you closer to your family in ways and makes you grow apart from certain friends. I used to have a lot of close friends but these days, I can hardly think of a couple. I don’t know if it’s the pregnancy hormones still looming about (I was told it could take a few years to level out!) but I’ve been a little sad about it lately.

I LOVE having my little one as my bestie. She ALWAYS wants to be wish me, around me and to be held by me. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I guess I just feel like I’m mourning the loss of some friendships. It’s funny because there were people that I thought would be more involved in our lives and take an interest in her growth but to my surprise it was completely the opposite. They’ve grown more silent than ever, more absorbed in their own lives and doing their own thing. Am I being selfish? I guess I had certain expectations and I guess I expected people to act as how I would have if the shoe were on the other foot. I feel like if you are a close friend you would want to take interest in my baby’s growth and want to take an active role in getting to know her. Is that too much to ask?

After birth, I had a rough recovery, a rough road. I had a bout of some really narly post partum depression and it was quite a journey to get myself out of it. I just remember having a super difficult time climbing out and needed all the support I could get. Not many were around and not many cared to even know what I was going through. All but one friend really understood my situation and I’m thankful she stood by me all hours of the night and day. She came to my rescue countless times.

My little piglet is now 9 months old and I am happy to say that I have adapted pretty well to my new role in motherhood. Of course everyday is a new learning experience and I have a long way to go but I still do have moments where it’s hard to cope. My hormones are still crazy at times and sometimes I feel really lost. There are moments of loneliness, helplessness, a loss of identity, stress, anxiety and extreme exhaustion. Sometimes I just need a hug and someone to tell me it’s going to be okay! I think this is where I feel the mourning of my friendships. Like I’m over here screaming silently asking for help and no one even notices.

In the end what matters most is your family. Friendships that aren’t meant to be will fall to the wayside and those meant to last will stay. Friendships I thought would strengthen didn’t but there were a couple friendships that blossomed and I have to focus on those instead. Becoming a mother is all about change I just need to let my life and relationships go where it takes me!

Don’t Worry About That Instant Bond

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Soon to be moms keep hearing about other mom’s stories of their “love at first sight” and instant bond with their newborn. You see it in movies all the time and hear all the love stories. People will keep telling you how amazing it’s going to be and how you will instantly feel a love and bond like no other. You will go home from the hospital and it will be an amazing time just “oohing” and “aahing” over this new baby. This will be the honeymoon period of your birth!

I’m here to say DON’T put pressure on yourself to feel this and don’t even think or agonize about how you are going to feel when that tiny human comes out of you. Way too many things are going on mentally, emotionally and physically that the last thing you need is to worry about whether you are feeling enough love for your new baby. If you do, great, if not, DON’T WORRY, it happens on its own and you will get there. I think a lot of moms lie when asked if it was “love at first sight”. Hey I get it, sometimes I’m ashamed to admit that I didn’t have that fairytale birth where I looked into her eyes and love overwhelmed my heart and soul. Don’t get me wrong, when she was born it was amazing. I cried when the doctor laid her on my chest and when I held her, whoa, it was unreal. I definitely LOVED her and felt a connection. But it wasn’t like the stories I have heard. The bond definitely took some time to build and the love definitely did not come rushing through all at once. Not to fret though, my love for her now is so overwhelming I cry when I think of it. She makes every fiber of my heart melt and I love her more (if that’s even possible) each day. The bond I have with her is something I can’t even begin to explain.

So kudos to the mamas who had the fairytale births, it does happen for many moms, this I know! But if you are one of the mamas who didn’t have this uber emotional lovey dovey birth and you are sitting there wondering if something is wrong with you, don’t worry, nothing is wrong. When you give birth immediately there is a decline in those happy hormones and some women encounter medical issues so it makes it hard to focus on bonding with baby. For me I had a rough experience and post partum depression so it definitely made the bonding period challenging for me. No birth experiences are ever the same so don’t base someone else’s experience to what you are going to face. Yours will be unique entirely on its own. Just know, whether you bond at the hospital or days or weeks later at home, it will be amazing and the love you will feel will make everything worth it.

Rules For Visiting Newborns

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I touched briefly on this topic in one of my earlier blog posts but felt I needed to dedicate a post just for this. Before I became pregnant I didn’t realize a lot of these things! Seems like common sense to all moms which a majority of the time it is (there are moms or older people that don’t get it) but for non-parents it’s not! It is really important to respect a family and a mom that has a new baby and to abide by their needs and rules when visiting. Here are some guidelines below:

– Ask mom directly if it’s okay to visit and when would be a good time. If you are in contact with dad make sure he gets the green light from mom. A lot of times dads are oblivious and just invite everyone over without mom’s consent. True story. Don’t be pushy or persistent. Every mom and family is different. Some moms don’t mind visitors straight away but for me I really wasn’t ready for visitors until 8 weeks and even then it was only for really close friends and family.

– Bring food! Do not, I repeat do not come empty handed on your first visit. It is unbelievably hectic when you first bring a baby home and a lot of times food is forgotten about so food is always welcome!

– When you come over wash your hands if you are going to hold the baby. Do not kiss the baby! I think it’s so rude when people just go in and grab your baby or kiss your baby all over the face. That’s the quickest way to give baby an illness!

– Do not hog the baby the whole time or expect to just come over and take away from the special beginning bonding moments of this new family. Instead, see if there’s something you can do around the house like a load of laundry, dishes, cooking a meal, walking the dogs, vacuum, etc. This would be beyond helpful. I hate it when people just come over and want to relax on your couch and hold your baby while you have to sit there and entertain while you are completely exhausted!

– Do not stay long. One hour max. Newborns need their rest and so do moms. Last thing we want is to sit there for hours holding up a conversation when all we can think about is when the next time to nurse is.

– Better yet, leave food at the door and go. Include a note or card asking to let you know when a good time to visit is. This would be beyond appreciated!

– If you are sick, beginning to feel sick or even getting over being sick, please stay home!

– If baby starts crying please hand him/her back to parents. Do not force the interaction or think you should try to soothe baby yourself.

– Abide by parents rules! Every family is different, some more lax than others. If a family requires you to be updated on your vaccines then respect their wishes.

Again, every family is different especially when they have several kids vs. 1. When its a family’s first baby it’s definitely a more sensitive time. I’m sure by the 3rd or 4th baby their rules have definitely changed! It’s best to always ask first though, when is a good time to visit and what do you need? My girlfriend Katelyn who has been a tremendous help is the perfect ideal example of a friend that was super respectful, helpful and accomodating. She checked in on me everyday through text and waited until I was ready to invite her over. She never came over empty handed (always yummy food!) and always took the initiative in doing things to help me. She would come over with groceries and cook, hold the baby while I showered, babysat while I ran errands, and left food on my doorstep because she didn’t want to bother me or wake baby. On top of all this she always respected how I wanted to care for my baby even though she had kids of her own and this was my first! She is definitely the ideal mom friend to have and has been beyond helpful and wonderful to my new family.

You Won’t Understand Until…

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You definitely won’t understand another mother’s struggle until you yourself become a mom. It’s so true. I never really put myself in the shoes of my friends who had already had kids way before me. I didn’t get why they were late to functions or always had an excuse to not come out. I wondered why they were always tired and didn’t have time to maintain themselves.  Sometimes keeping in touch would be challenging because they would be MIA or take forever to respond. And what was this talk about scheduling plans around nap time? What was that nonsense??! Ahhh now I know, I am on the other side and have joined my fellow mom friends. I get it now ladies, I understand!

No Sleep, No Rest. – I never thought about this until I was thrown into it after having my little Piglet. Wow. Praise to all the mamas out there. It’s hard! No sleep, no showers and barely any full meals make for a very rough road each day. The first 3 months were a complete blur as I was barely hanging by a thread. It has either gotten better or I have gotten better with dealing with it. I apologize to my mom friends in instances that I didn’t understand why you were always tired! You do not know true exhaustion until you become a mom. I know this is true as I have once worked double shifts as a bartender, triple shifts as a server/bartender, and have gone countless nights with several hours of sleep. It in no way compares to the hours you clock in with motherhood. There is no clocking out!

Going Out – I remember way back when I would ask my mom friends to go out partying or drinking and wouldn’t understand how hard it was to find a sitter. You think hey just ask your mom or friend right? Now that I’m on the other side I a) would much rather stay home with my baby than go partying b) sitters are not that easy to find as I thought c) it’s extremely hard to trust just anyone with your baby, family members included. For instance I don’t think I’d even trust my mom to watch my baby. It’s been 35 years since she held or cared for a baby and many things have changed!

“The Mom Look” – I didn’t understand this look but I often saw it amongst mom friends or random moms in public. The look can be a one of or a combination of the following: short hair, messy bun, ponytail, dirty hair, sweats, yoga pants/leggings, oversized tshirt, vomit or spit up on clothes, flip flops or sneakers, no makeup, chipped nail polish, bags/circles under eyes. Moms out there, I understand now… I understand. Enough said.

Visiting New Moms/Newborns – Okay, if you are visiting a newborn these are things you do beforehand:

– Ask mom directly if it’s okay to visit and when would be a good time. Don’t push. Every mom is different. For me I really wasn’t ready for visitors until 8 weeks.

– Bring food!

– When you come over wash your hands if you are going to hold the baby. Do not kiss the baby!

– Do not hog the baby the whole time or expect to just come over and take away from the beginning bonding moment of this new family. Instead, see if there’s something you can do around the house like a load of laundry, dishes, cooking a meal, walking the dogs, vacuum, etc. This would be beyond helpful. I hate it when people just come over and want to relax on your couch and hold your baby while you have to sit there and entertain while you are completely exhausted!

– Do not stay long. One hour max. Newborns need their rest and so do moms. Last thing we want is to sit there for hours holding up a conversation when all we can think about is when the next time to nurse is.

– Better yet, leave food at the door and go. Include a note or card asking to let you know when a good time to visit is. This would be beyond appreciated!

Friends and New Babies – Of course when you have a friend with a new baby your natural inclination is to congratulate and check in on them. But then you don’t hear from them for a while and the friendship tapers off. It’s not you, it’s this whole new chapter of your friend’s life that she’s trying to adjust to! Even if she’s not responsive, she IS reading your messages and thinking of you. Just because us moms have a new baby in our lives doesn’t mean we want to drop all of our friends. If I could change something I would have made more effort in the past to be there for my friends who just had babies. It’s hard! And you won’t know what I’m talking about until you have gone through it yourself. So just try to be understanding and make the effort in coming to visit, being supportive, and keeping the friendship going. One day you will be a mom too and may need her!

Non-Moms-  To those reading that are not moms yet: Try your best to take the time in understanding what your mom friends are going through. Offer help, support, love and FOOD! If you can, offer to babysit or cook one night! This time is such an overwhelming crazy time in a new mom’s life that it’s hard to sit down and stay in contact with friends. Be there for her and never be “too busy”. You don’t know the meaning of busy until you’ve had kids, trust me.

Motherhood Changed Me

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The second my little Piglet was born, I felt different. Well of course I felt different I’m the proud new parent of a small human being. But it was something else I tell you. Other chambers in myself opened whilst others shut forever. I was the old Jen but somehow with tweaks in my personality. Sleep deprivation definitely was responsible for the grouch in me but there was more. Suddenly nothing else mattered but HER. Everything about her came first. I would think of her 24 hours a day and research all about sleep patterns, feeding, babies, raising them, do’s and don’ts, products, shop for her, etc. I was and still am completely wrapped up in her.

My viewpoint towards people and friends changed a ton. Friends that didn’t care about my new life were no longer close friends to me. Naturally I grew apart from them. People that didn’t mind their manners about germs, being sick around her or being mindful of her nap time were wretched to me. I laugh. Because I know. It’s crazy. I get crazy mom syndrome sometimes and I’ll admit it. Anyone, and I mean anyone that comes over and isn’t mindful of her naps and what she needs gets to see my dark side, and it’s not pleasant. Lol. It’s all about her.

I cared less about myself. Okay this is bad but good. Bad for me, good for her, sort of. I put all of my energy and life into caring for her, nurturing her and making sure she has everything she needs. I spend time grooming her development and keeping her entertained. I would much rather spend money and time into making sure she has all the toys, games, and clothes she needs rather than spend on myself. The other day I felt guilty about buying sneakers. Why did I buy them? Ever since I got pregnant my feet swelled up and never went back. I needed comfortable shoes to carry her around in. Above all, material items aside, I give her all of me, my time, attention and love. And I’ll keep doing it no matter what. Yes, I’ve let myself go a bit, I’m not as thin and I don’t spend time applying makeup or curling my hair anymore. I really wish I could trust me, but that extra time goes to her and it’s deserving because one day I’ll blink and she will be 16.

Things that used to matter don’t matter anymore. It’s true. You become more focused on your family rather than going out, being around certain groups or spending frivolously on things (unless it’s for Piglet!). You start paying more attention on relationships that matter rather than unfruitful ones.

If you were not already in tune to world events or news even, you start to pay attention because it’s the world your little one will grow up in. Suddenly you worry because he or she will have to be around this. I became more eco-friendly when I became pregnant. I switched out all of my personal and home products. I make sure I recycle and not waste. I try to research all products before purchase. I am even trying to be more energy efficient. I want her to learn these things so she can help preserve our world so that she has a world to live in.

I’m not as nice. For the time being (hopefully). To everyone else besides my Piglet. I hate to say this but it’s true. My patience is tested to the core and I get no sleep or rest day to day. I have nothing left in me to be cordial or deal with small talk. The bags under my eyes speak for themselves. I barely know what day it is anymore and I don’t really care about anything else but getting her naps and feedings in. I have a very low tolerance for B.S. and I’m quick to snap.

On an end note, most of all that’s changed about me is the immense love my heart could hold and feel. I never knew my heart could give this much love or I could feel this way for another. On top of this it grows stronger with each day. I look at her and my heart wants to explode out of my chest. The words “she’s mine” leave my mouth and I hug her close to my heart. My biggest accomplishment is this little human who challenges me in the most meaningful ways each and every day.

Why I Blog

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After reading some of my posts you may think wow, she likes to write about her bad experiences. No, it’s just I want to inform others of the things no one tells you. I feel like a lot of moms have bad experiences but they tend to not share or warn others about it for fear of scaring or ruining someone’s moment. You have a baby shower and all the women just tell you about how beautiful it’s going to be and how wonderful motherhood is. YES, it’s completely wonderful but with hurdles you have to get over in between. You don’t know how many times I’ve asked friends if they had gone through what I did and they said yes. I would then say “Well why didn’t you warn me??!!” A lot of people feel like they should just talk about the best parts of motherhood and the rest left unspoken. It’s almost taboo. Trust, I love motherhood. I couldn’t imagine life without my little Piglet. BUT, I did go through a lot to get here and there are days where I definitely get tested. I think had I been more informed or given a heads up about some things, in particular my postpartum experience, I would have been better prepared. Society has you thinking that you go in the hospital to have your baby, have an immediate bond, bring baby home and it’s wonderful from there on out. I didn’t have any of those things at all. Immediate bond? No. Wonderful time at home? No. Everyone’s experience is going to be different, no two will be the same. So regardless of what others say, you are going to have your own experience. But be prepared for anything! My reason for blogging my experience is just to give insight on a different experience than what you may have heard or read about. I don’t want to just write about the hearts and flowers, I want to write about the nitty gritty.

Advice

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It seems the moment you announce your pregnancy a ton of advice comes through from everyone around. Some solicited, some unsolicited. I am always open to advice and hearing about other mom’s stories and experience, but to a certain extent. I definitely advise any new moms to surround themselves with at least a few trusted mom friends to call upon when you have questions or need guidance. This is a definite MUST. What I have a problem with is people that don’t have kids of their own giving you advice on how to handle your baby, whether you should vaccinate or not, and how to raise your kids. I also have an issue with older people telling me how they raised their kids 40 plus years ago when EVERYTHING was different back then. If you don’t have kids and didn’t have a baby within the last 10-12 years please don’t give me your two cents.

Advice that I’ve heard that I disagree with:

Keep your baby up all day so she will be tired and sleep better at night.

Keep all the lights on and TV loud at night so she will get used to the noise and interference.

Don’t pick up the baby too much or she will get spoiled.

Don’t let the baby sleep with you or she will be spoiled and want to be with you all the time.

Use a bunch of spices in your baby’s food early on so she won’t be a picky eater.

Look, she’s not tired yet let me play with her some more. (When it’s her scheduled nap time)

Let your baby cry it out. Okay, so I agree and disagree to an extent with this. I agree to not run to pick baby up at the slightest whimper noise or cry (as long as they are not hurt or in danger). I agree with letting baby fuss it out a bit before sleep because some babies just need to do this to settle before sleep. But I don’t agree with shutting their nursery door at night and not returning till the morning while letting them cry and scream the whole night through. I don’t agree with letting your baby cry till he/she vomits, letting her cry and sweat till she soaks through her clothes and sheets, or till she cries and chokes.

All in all, my point is, you will hear a ton of advice from everyone around on how to raise your baby and what to do. Whenever I had a question I would ask 3 different mom friends and also do my own research. I would then choose a method that seemed to work best for me. Sometimes I went with a friend’s advice, sometimes I would blend different opinions together and there were times I just went with my gut instinct. You as a mother should pick what seems best for you and your baby. Never feel pressured to go with your Mom’s, In Law’s, Friend’s or even a website’s advice. This is why I always tell new mom friends that the information is out there, there is NO EXCUSE for not educating yourself about your baby and how to care for he/she!